Entrepreneurgatory

Entrepreneurgatory-(äntrəprəˈnər’ɡəˌtôrē)- Noun

  1. place or state of struggle, suffering and/or misery inhabited by persons who organize and operate a business or businesses taking greater than normal financial risks, while paying their metaphorical-dues before making it to business nirvana, success.
  2. time aspiring business owner spends leading towards entrepreneur heaven.

Fresh into a new year and I’m making up words. In my defense, I needed a word to describe where I am AT. Not where I’ve been, not what I think I may do, not where I want to end up but this special, specific place that I am in right this second. That middle ground when you are between heaven and hell. Between your past and your future. Between where you want to be and where you are coming from. Between success and failure.

When people talk about the secrets to their successes, they always delve into their back story. They talk about the checklist of accomplishments, the awards, the dollars and cents. They use words like “hard work,” “long nights,” and “struggle.” We regularly hear from the successful persons at the top of their game motivating, giving tips and sharing info. But I want to dive into that murky place between struggle and success. What’s swimming in that space so many successful gloss over by saying ‘it didn’t happen overnight.’ What lives in that gray matter between our ears when we aren’t sure of our next move, when the ball’s in our court but we are still figuring out which game we are playing? How many long nights with lost sleep? How did that struggle affect your mental strength, your view of yourself, your vision, and your relationships? I am living all of these questions right now. I am reporting, live, from deep inside a state of Entrepreneurgatory.

Trying for that tree

Entrepreneurgatory is a lonely place on the road to success. The successful will use it for internal motivation but many find it difficult to convey this struggle to those that haven’t experienced this in-between space. This murky middle-ground may not be short term, practical or glamorous but I’m damn sure hoping it at least builds character (at most builds successful businesses!) It’s not easy to break down the real raw details of your fight to convince the fans and haters that you are not an overnight success. What fills those days, months and years between the thought “I’m going to do this” and “I’ve made it?” That’s where I’m living right now.

For perspective, there’s the sleepless nights you’re in a brain fog with no new ideas, left playing Foosball with the old ideas or kicking around things other people are already doing. You are spending days feeling so exhausted because you are overwhelmed and under-producing. The friends and family giving unsolicited advice about life and career decisions because they can’t, won’t or don’t understand your trajectory. There’s the month you spent just working at your part time job so you can pay rent, and not channeling an ounce of extra energy into anything other then sleep.eat.shower. Add to all of this the frustration in knowing this is not where you want to be. The real swirling question in Entrepreneurgatory: what is your next move?

Outtakes… many, many outtakes…in life

Goals. Motivation. Direction. Organization.

My keys to climb out of Entrepreneurgatory.

 

 

Goals: I’ve mapped out my year, I’ve started in on a 3 year and 5 predictions. I’m dreaming big and realistic at the same time. (not easy- I call it my magical reality.)

 

 

 

Motivation: Internally motivated based on my love of giving people the tools to improve their lives through health, fitness and wellness consistency and training.

 

 

Change of Direction

 

 

Direction: I am moving in the direction of sole proprietorship. Owning what I know with the freedom to deliver science-based workouts and regimens wrapped up and served

 

 

Organization: Increasing awareness and accountability by tracking information, ideas and progress digitally and in writing i.e. agenda, planner, calendars, dry erase board. If I write something it increases the likelihood that I will remember and act on it. Now I also include reminders, motivational quotes and to-do items on my phone’s calendar. It’s like having a personal assistant.

 

 

You guys are all along for this ride with me. I know people love to celebrate the success but come on the climb with me, grind with me, work with me, jump wit me.

Play Hard Get Fit.

*L*

 

 

 

 

Surf Camp makes Summer Adventurous

Vacation should include an adventure. An adventure that lets you escape from normal life. Siren Surf Camp with Farmdog Surf School in Nags Head, NC was the perfect addition to a family vacation and to having an Adventurous August.

Working on my pop up on land
Working on my pop up on land

I’ve never worn a wet suit. I felt like I was a sea mammal with my extra coating of blubber, I was so warm and it made me fearless of cold water and wipeouts. I could throw my body into the surf and I had this amazing protective layer to make sure I stayed warm and scratch free. It was a hot mess to get on though. Skinny jeans are nothing compared to the dance I did to get my wet suit on!

We met our instructors. The knowledgeable and teacher-esque, Skyla. She is also a ocean lifeguard so if was a very safe feeling knowing if something happened that she was already in the water with us.  Hannah was all surfer girl-cool in her trucker hat. Then Hailey who was super bubbly and I loved her energy! Each of them were in the surf with us, pushing us into waves, cheering us on and giving us tips and pointers before and after wipeouts!

Each day of camp began with a picturesque yoga sequence facing the Atlantic. Bailey taught our class and was all warmed up because she taught a sunrise class right before ours. We all had a large piece of canvas that we shared. I expected sand to be flying around vigorously during any transition between a warrior and a downward dog; that was not the case at all. She had us do a number of yoga poses specifically for surfing. Hips and shoulder opening. Lots of child’s pose and a little bit of balance. Her voice was clear and likeable, always a good thing for a yoga teacher. There is no equivalent to being able to sit in the sand with your eyes closed, the morning sun on your face, the sound of waves smashing and hustling into and away from shore, and the clarity your mind is able to regain.

Getting zipped up, ankle strap attached and picking up your board lets your body know “get ready!” The water is shallow enough to wade out with your board but the waves are strong and our boards were easier to control while on them and paddling. Can you say shoulder workout!? I loved the challenge of paddling out into the water and digging in and picking up speed to catch a wave. Your focus shifts you are now in surfing survival mode; float and wait for a wave, scan the horizon for a set, pick your wave, paddle for your wave, catch a part of that wave, wipeout, tumble under the water, grab you leash and board, paddle back through waves out to the flat water and then catch your breath. IMG_7024I wanted to catch as many waves as I possibly could which equaled a massive workout for me. Pretty sure my lungs were still being tossed around in the surf for most of the session! Standing up on your surfboard is like standing up on top of the world. It is exhilarating! All the ladies were cheering each other on, we were so excited when we caught waves and just as excited for the wipeouts. At the end of Siren Surf Camp I felt so accomplished and adventurous! It was the perfect addition to summer. For more information, check out www.farmdogsurfschool.com or follow Farmdog Surf School and PlayHardGetFit on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter.